Home is the best place where we can relax. It makes me weaker than any other places with no reason. I always feel like the cloud floating in the sky.
Why????
Maybe, home knows everything, what I'd thought, done and made since I was born. Additionally, it protects us from the natural disaster. Also, it owns my family. It helps us to make a band between us no matter how irritated or sad our feeling are. Home is a part of our family history. Probably, it is alive, has a heart and mind. it may talk with us. However I didn't listen to it. That's why my mind is going somewhere I can't catch. Feels like I'm lost even though I'm safe. No wonder, I have no energy to do something C'z I can not refuse it. As we are altogether, it is called synergy.
Yeah, I didn't talk with my home yet....
Hum....let me start with chit-chat....
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
If I had...., what would I have...??
I'm going to driving school every day, and I'm seeing a lot of high school students talking with friends and going home. Just four years ago, but it's kind of long time ago. At least I can't go back to that time.
Why couldn't I be friendly more?
Why couldn't I try anything more?
No doubt, I don't feel bad about what I've done in those days.
However, just my curiosities shake my head with the big question.
If I hadn't gone abroad, what would I have...???
Yeah, I know I shouldn't ask non-answer question.
Maybe am I lonely? not satisfied with my life enough??
Hum That's too bad even though I've done what I wanted...
Why couldn't I be friendly more?
Why couldn't I try anything more?
No doubt, I don't feel bad about what I've done in those days.
However, just my curiosities shake my head with the big question.
If I hadn't gone abroad, what would I have...???
Yeah, I know I shouldn't ask non-answer question.
Maybe am I lonely? not satisfied with my life enough??
Hum That's too bad even though I've done what I wanted...
Monday, June 16, 2008
The past
I came back to Osaka two weeks ago.
I'll be here for two more months during the summer vacations.
Yeah, of course I've been happy to see my family and eat Japanese food.
However, feels like back to the past when I was in Japan.
and these memories left just only chagrin.
I was self-center when I was in Japan. I thought I could have hands to control everything in the world even though I was just only one kind of human being. Besides, I didn't know anything in the world at that time. Maybe, I've grown up for this four years C'z I realized that.
One more past comes to me...
Yes, High school life's memory is unforgettable for everyone. Some people blossomed all high school life. But also, some people rusted high school life. When I was at grade eleven, I was bullied among classmates (feels like all students). Everyone didn't know my feeling; in deed, maybe they knew it but I was just ignorant. Finally I decided to make no friends at high school C'z I was more happy to belieive myself than trust bullying classmates. I thought they wouldn't be good friends anyway. It was right...but probably I lost good friends at the same time.
Recently, one question has stuck on me...
why did I do that???
It was a gift, given by the personal god, to build up my personalities.
Or just I was too young to be mature. (We have to make mistakes a lot.)
Let me think more....
one thing I know...
the past never changes but the future wills in order to change the presence.
I'll be here for two more months during the summer vacations.
Yeah, of course I've been happy to see my family and eat Japanese food.
However, feels like back to the past when I was in Japan.
and these memories left just only chagrin.
I was self-center when I was in Japan. I thought I could have hands to control everything in the world even though I was just only one kind of human being. Besides, I didn't know anything in the world at that time. Maybe, I've grown up for this four years C'z I realized that.
One more past comes to me...
Yes, High school life's memory is unforgettable for everyone. Some people blossomed all high school life. But also, some people rusted high school life. When I was at grade eleven, I was bullied among classmates (feels like all students). Everyone didn't know my feeling; in deed, maybe they knew it but I was just ignorant. Finally I decided to make no friends at high school C'z I was more happy to belieive myself than trust bullying classmates. I thought they wouldn't be good friends anyway. It was right...but probably I lost good friends at the same time.
Recently, one question has stuck on me...
why did I do that???
It was a gift, given by the personal god, to build up my personalities.
Or just I was too young to be mature. (We have to make mistakes a lot.)
Let me think more....
one thing I know...
the past never changes but the future wills in order to change the presence.
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
(Mr/Mrs/Miss) English
English is one kind of brain sports.
I've been in Canada for a long time, but longer staying feels need my English with much more brushness. We learned once even perfectly doesn't mean a gold medalist. I have to practice and practice in facing situations every moment unless I am a gold medalist. (maybe even the gold medalist keeps it up!!)
English is like a person.
There are a lot of given opportunities as like as making friends. they don't care how much I made mistakes, instead they will just make distance a little bit. So I have to notice that and consider what I should do the next time.
However, they come to us if I treat with them in a certain way. After I take a lot of time and close to them, we can make unforgettable memories. We can laugh together, sometimes share with good time and bad time.
All in all, we will fill with glee for good no matter how we are at difficult period.
English is fun!!
I've been in Canada for a long time, but longer staying feels need my English with much more brushness. We learned once even perfectly doesn't mean a gold medalist. I have to practice and practice in facing situations every moment unless I am a gold medalist. (maybe even the gold medalist keeps it up!!)
English is like a person.
There are a lot of given opportunities as like as making friends. they don't care how much I made mistakes, instead they will just make distance a little bit. So I have to notice that and consider what I should do the next time.
However, they come to us if I treat with them in a certain way. After I take a lot of time and close to them, we can make unforgettable memories. We can laugh together, sometimes share with good time and bad time.
All in all, we will fill with glee for good no matter how we are at difficult period.
English is fun!!
Good life
Are you having a good life?
I was kind of wondering if I have or not.
Merely, everyone has a wonderful definition of "GOOD LIFE".
It might be having a good family, friends around you and enough money to spend on what you want.
Certainly, I agree with them, but my good life is not as unique as "Eternal life", but just a little bit more than normal.
I don't get somehow what I expected in the past, this point...I can say "No".
However, I've been challenging something new, I can say "Yes" at this rate.
In personal,
What's point is it can say "I'm having a good life" unless I'm self-going without any dream and hope.
What's more I can say....keep up with open mind and my best.
I was kind of wondering if I have or not.
Merely, everyone has a wonderful definition of "GOOD LIFE".
It might be having a good family, friends around you and enough money to spend on what you want.
Certainly, I agree with them, but my good life is not as unique as "Eternal life", but just a little bit more than normal.
I don't get somehow what I expected in the past, this point...I can say "No".
However, I've been challenging something new, I can say "Yes" at this rate.
In personal,
What's point is it can say "I'm having a good life" unless I'm self-going without any dream and hope.
What's more I can say....keep up with open mind and my best.
Friday, April 11, 2008
Founder effect
Focus on one thing is good; but it's also risky.
We are getting something new instead of loosing something.
what's gonna happen if the one thing must be lost sometime?
We should broaden what I can do or better my capacities.
Keep working harder than I can do or I am working.
Merely, one of variable experiences will find a tunnel for the next step, and just step on it when it is mature. Then, willingly find what I hadn't seen.
That's my evolution. Haha.
We are getting something new instead of loosing something.
what's gonna happen if the one thing must be lost sometime?
We should broaden what I can do or better my capacities.
Keep working harder than I can do or I am working.
Merely, one of variable experiences will find a tunnel for the next step, and just step on it when it is mature. Then, willingly find what I hadn't seen.
That's my evolution. Haha.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Be myself.
How can I get rid of this weird feeling??
Sometimes I feel I shouldn't have said to other person my unmanaged things.
After saying, I was always thinking ahead ahead and loose some current things and the future things.
I should control myself more and always beware of this moment.
If I'm hanging around, always put the right mind into myself.
Sometimes I feel I shouldn't have said to other person my unmanaged things.
After saying, I was always thinking ahead ahead and loose some current things and the future things.
I should control myself more and always beware of this moment.
If I'm hanging around, always put the right mind into myself.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Friday, February 8, 2008
What a littlest thing.
Even though I'm so hungry, I can just cook or eat out.
Meanwhile, some people are starving somewhere in the world
Even though I hurt something by my mistaken,
some children are also trembling with uncontroled fears in the world.
Even though I hate somebody for some reasons,
some people are killing each other in the war with unknown reasons.
I'm such a looseness person.
Meanwhile, some people are starving somewhere in the world
Even though I hurt something by my mistaken,
some children are also trembling with uncontroled fears in the world.
Even though I hate somebody for some reasons,
some people are killing each other in the war with unknown reasons.
I'm such a looseness person.
Saturday, February 2, 2008
Sick of Life
Even though I'm doing my best in my life, I just feel nothing in my life.
My expectancy is maybe so high? but what's wrong with that?
People will get lost the dream when people start looking at theirselve downward.
Or just I didn't give up easily one thing; and I am so stubborn and awkward???
Asking myself thousands times
what am I doing? would be there something for my future?
Maybe just feeling lost everything; in deed, I didn't drop anything.
Just feeling for that way somehow.
I totally mis-estimate myself. I could control my stress, time, emotion etc.....
But sometime maybe not and out of control.
then just let it be.
My expectancy is maybe so high? but what's wrong with that?
People will get lost the dream when people start looking at theirselve downward.
Or just I didn't give up easily one thing; and I am so stubborn and awkward???
Asking myself thousands times
what am I doing? would be there something for my future?
Maybe just feeling lost everything; in deed, I didn't drop anything.
Just feeling for that way somehow.
I totally mis-estimate myself. I could control my stress, time, emotion etc.....
But sometime maybe not and out of control.
then just let it be.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
"Something with hope" & "Something with reality"
There are no doubt we have to face the reality in our life; more importantly, we should hope what we want.
Without dream, people are more likely to be lost in what we've done and for what?? So I really believe that the meaning of the life is how you consider of yourself.
Surely, we should know our potential; however, the point is the potential doesn't limit our dream meanwhile something with hope gives us more potential. It must be powerful.
It would be falling down and losing a word; then we wouldn't make it.
But a time when it happens or not will naturally come, so why don't we try?
A worse thing is sidestepping the dream and not stepping on the world.
Even though the life things without our dream are tougher more than we think, then why don't we overcome them toward our dream??
There is a door to open an unknown or exciting world as long as trying to catch a chance given by a god. The reality will come soon without our anxiety. Then just face it.
We should have some hope with the reality, then we might be on the right track.
Without dream, people are more likely to be lost in what we've done and for what?? So I really believe that the meaning of the life is how you consider of yourself.
Surely, we should know our potential; however, the point is the potential doesn't limit our dream meanwhile something with hope gives us more potential. It must be powerful.
It would be falling down and losing a word; then we wouldn't make it.
But a time when it happens or not will naturally come, so why don't we try?
A worse thing is sidestepping the dream and not stepping on the world.
Even though the life things without our dream are tougher more than we think, then why don't we overcome them toward our dream??
There is a door to open an unknown or exciting world as long as trying to catch a chance given by a god. The reality will come soon without our anxiety. Then just face it.
We should have some hope with the reality, then we might be on the right track.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
This year, my resolutions are more acknowledgeable and more impression toward my life.
But if I feel uneducated myself, how can I feel more impression??
the world keeps asking us why and what.
Simultaneously, the world has changed more than we've imaged.
So...here is the answer: don't stop....just keep going what I have encountered; naturally, the solution will pop up.
Otherwise, I would be lost what have happened in the world, even around me.
But if I feel uneducated myself, how can I feel more impression??
the world keeps asking us why and what.
Simultaneously, the world has changed more than we've imaged.
So...here is the answer: don't stop....just keep going what I have encountered; naturally, the solution will pop up.
Otherwise, I would be lost what have happened in the world, even around me.
Monday, January 14, 2008
never changes unless doing something.
I just wanna change something a little in my life, and this little thing would lead me something with no doubt.
For one thing, maybe I should start to show up what I've been feeling, thinking and putting into my head. So do I!!
English is my second language; so sometimes the sentence must be wicked, so what???
There are no way to get better unless I take a practice and time in English.
Wish me luck.
For one thing, maybe I should start to show up what I've been feeling, thinking and putting into my head. So do I!!
English is my second language; so sometimes the sentence must be wicked, so what???
There are no way to get better unless I take a practice and time in English.
Wish me luck.
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